| MY BIGGEST MISTAKE IN MY 20 YEARS OF LIFE |
Most of the time I wonder why I chose to get myself into this mess. Things do look good for me, but only on the outside. If anyone were to look at me through a microscope, I'm actually a really screwed-up person, seriously. If I were to choose and decide all over again, I definitely wouldn't walk the same path. I should have known way earlier. I just feel so stupid right now. It took me so long to realise my own mistake. But then again, I knew.. right from the beginning I knew. But I still. I'm a total retard. I chose it. My biggest mistake. I hurt myself. I brought myself hopes and then disapppoint. Distrust. Anger. Worries. Lots of complications. Everything is just so damn wrong.
It will be too hurtful to step away from my mistake now. And I cannot bear to do it to myself anyway. I could only pray that it will be a beautiful mistake though, that I will have my happy ending. The feeling of uncertainty is so fucked up, I hate it.
"I really shouldn't have......................" |
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